I think it’s good every now and then to step back from life and do some re-examining. It’s good to ask ourselves why we are doing what we are doing. It’s been heavy on my heart this morning to take a look at why I write my blog.
I began this blog journey on Saturday, November 10, 2007. In fact, I just re-read my first post. I began writing after talking with my friend Jill who had begun a blog. I had always enjoyed writing. I look back now and see how God was giving me a passion to write even more. I was excited to begin this journey.
I guess the main reason I wanted to start writing was for my children. In 2007 I was still grieving my mom’s death. She passed away in December of 2006. There have been so many times since her passing that I wished I could have the tangible details of Mom’s life…her words, her thoughts, her experiences, her life. Oh, how I would cherish those today! I wanted to be able to give that gift to my children. I desired to bless them, and maybe even my future grandchildren, with pictures, with my words, and giving them insight into my life–even after I’m gone. And still desire that today.
I think I’ve probably shared about most everything in my life here as I’ve tried to live out this life of transparency. I realize some people would never dream of sharing life like I do here. Some may think I share to much. Some may thing I’m “too real.” Some may think I share things that aren’t important. Some may criticize me and some may call me naive. And I’m sure some have quit reading my blog because I write too much about God and my faith.
There was a time during this journey that I really let those thoughts bother me. I attempted to write to please my “reader.” And I even went through a time of that recently. But why would I write to please people? Especially when I have no idea what they want to read? I watched my blog become “scattered” in my writing. And I felt God nudging me to get my focus back on where it needed to be…loving God and loving others. Period. To focus on what He wants me to write and to not second-guess.
When subjects pop into my mind to write about, I have learned from experience that if I begin writing about any such subject and it flows easily, then that idea was God-given. If it doesn’t, then it’s probably not. Some would say that thought process alone is crazy. And that’s okay. Usually writing on here isn’t laborious for me–it’s joy-filled. That’s also how I know it’s God-given. I just need to keep doing what I feel God is wanting me to do, no matter what anyone else says or thinks. Period. (Wow, what a simple focus to live by, huh?) 🙂
And there’s a lot of relief and freedom in that.
So, I’ll continue to write. And I’ll continue to share my life…the simple and complicated, the serious and silly, the important and mundane details of my life. I don’t have the life of a movie star, but I have the life God has blessed me with, and that alone is something special to write about!