Yesterday I was very thankful for who God is creating me to be. I’m so thankful that I’m not who I used to be, and I look forward with anticipation to the person God wants me to be. I’m not there yet, I know. I have many, many flaws…stubbornness, pride, self-centeredness…just to name a few! 🙂
But God has done a mighty work in me, and I’m very thankful He has removed areas of and attitudes in my life that didn’t please Him. I used to want to be the best in everything, and I worked until I was. I promoted myself to receive earthly recognition and the big paycheck that followed. Looking back, I lived a pretty shallow life back then. Life was all about me, and everyone knew it.
I almost have to chuckle…how God has replaced those attitudes with a heart of compassion for hurting people. I never in my wildest dreams pictured me working with those that others may consider the least, the last and the lost. Going from wearing a business suit every day, to now wearing jeans and a sweatshirt to work. Going from driving a pink Cadillac to just being thankful I have a dependable vehicle to get me to and from the Mission every day. Going from desiring more and more “things,” to being thankful for what God has provided me and my family. Going from wanting to stand out in the crowd, to now being content with blending in the crowd. Going from being too busy to do anything but my Mary Kay, to now working my Mary Kay around the life God has blessed me with. Wow…what a change…and a welcomed change, at that!
My life has much more meaning and purpose now. My life really isn’t all about me anymore, and even though I still am drawn to those tendencies, I try to focus on God’s purpose for me. I am living with much more peace and happiness than I ever have. I can honestly say I am content. What a blessed feeling!
Thank you, God for not giving up on me and for continuing to conform me into the person you desire me to be. I know I fail often. I know I’m not there yet…far from the mark you have set for me. Thank you for loving me enough to change me. Thank you for not leaving me the way I used to be. I look forward to continuing this amazing journey with you!