Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he’s the one who will keep you on track. Proverbs 3:5-6
Ever since Bill’s biking accident, I have seemed to question everything. I wish I could explain in detail all of what we’ve gone through in the last three weeks, but that would be about impossible. The realization that God could have taken Bill, but didn’t, has humbled me and rocked me to my core. Really…how can someone on a bicycle live being hit from behind by a car most likely going the speed limit of 55 mph? How can he escape with road rash, deep bruises, swelled joints, and only two cracked ribs? How can the rear-view mirror of the car have hit him on his rear, breaking the mirror, and he only have a bruise the shape of that mirror on his left rear cheek? How can there not even be a scratch on his bike helmet, after being flown from his bike for probably 20+ feet?
The only answer I have is God. God protected my husband, end of story. I don’t know how, but I know He did.
It’s been an uneasy road with insurance, and trying to figure out if the car that hit Bill is insured. It’s still all up in the air at this point. But we trust God is in this. If He spared Bill and brought him through this, we trust He will provide.
At the same time, it’s been a difficult and draining few weeks at Mission of Hope, and that difficulty has unfortunately been carried into our home. My work is such a part of my life, that I really cannot separate it from my personal life and my home life. This isn’t a 9-5 calling. It’s a calling on my LIFE. Most people will never realize what the leadership in this ministry has personally experienced in the last month…extreme circumstances that don’t make any sort of sense that we realize are attacks from the enemy. God must be up to something pretty big if we are experiencing the things we are experiencing.
We trust God is in all of this too. And we continue to walk our callings out.
I’m thankful I have the husband I do. I would imagine most husbands would have demanded I walk away from it all because of the suffering and difficult things we’ve recently experienced. But not Bill. He has never once even suggested I leave the Mission. He lets God be God, and he lets God be the One to guide me. I am one thankful wife for my incredible husband.
So why am I sharing all of this? I guess so some day my children will see that my life hasn’t always been the easy road they may think it is. I guess so I will continue to live out a real and transparent life. And most importantly, to share my trust and my faith in God, through Jesus Christ. I couldn’t make it through this life without Him.
The verse above couldn’t be more perfect for me at this time in my life. I will continue to trust God, and not try figuring everything out on my own. I will continue to listen for His voice everywhere I go, as He will direct me and also my family.
God’s in control and I don’t need to be. There’s such peace in that, my friends.