I wasn’t feeling well yesterday, and spent most of the afternoon and evening in our recliner. I didn’t sleep well at all last night, and when my alarm went off this morning, I felt like a truck had side-swiped me sometime throughout the night. I was stuffed up (and still am), I was (and still am) coughing, I was (and still am) achey, and when I got to moving around, I was light-headed and dizzy. I then knew where I would end up spending my day today…in our recliner.
I let Tina and the Mission staff now how I was feeling and that I didn’t think I could be there today. If you know me well, you know how I sometimes struggle with guilt over these type of things…not being able to be at work, etc. I feel sorry for letting people down who depend on me being there. But when I called Marcia at the Shelter to let her know what was going on, I felt God speaking through her in telling me to get some rest, and to take it easy so I don’t prolong being sick…and for me NOT to feel guilty. (Thank you, Marcia!)
I slept for a good two hours this morning, which felt good. I am under my favorite blanket, and have my box of tissues–and a pile of used ones–at my side. (Ick!) I still don’t feel any better yet, though. I’m praying that changes very soon. I have been so healthy this year…haven’t had a cold, the flu or anything like that. I’ve been so thankful! Really, all four of us have been pretty healthy. I can’t remember the last time I’ve felt this bad.
As I’ve sat here all day, without the t.v. on at all, I read my devotional, and read through my Bible Study Fellowship notes. God got my attention! He showed me, through the words I read, that He wants me to be more intimate with Him. To spend more time with Him. To allow time for me to sit at His feet each day, and to be more in His presence each day. Could this be why I’m home today? Maybe God really wanted to get my attention and to speak to me, and this is the only way I would slow down to listen? I usually am in God’s Word every day through my BSF lesson, and I normally talk to God throughout my day. But when I’m flying here and there in my daily activities, I have the tendency to only communicate with God on the fly, and not spend quality time with Him. If that’s the reason why I’m home sick, then feeling this bad has been worth it. God has got my attention!
There was a section in my BSF notes that seemed to jump off the page to me…it said, “God’s intention for you is intimacy with Him.” He also spoke to me through my devotional today…Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.
“YOU CANNOT SERVE TWO MASTERS
If I am truly your Master, you will desire to please Me above all others. If pleasing people is your goal, you will be enslaved to them. People can be harsh taskmasters when you give them power over you.
If I am the Master of your life, I will also be your First Love. Your serving Me is rooted and grounded in My vast, unconditional Love for you. The lower you bow down before Me, the higher I lift you up into intimate relationship with Me. The Joy of living in my Presence outshines all other pleasures. I want you to reflect My joyous Light by living in increasing intimacy with Me.”
One of the Scripture references for this devotion was Psalm 16:11 “You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.”
I love it when God speaks to me like He has today! I just wish it wouldn’t take circumstances like me being home sick and for me to be forced to slow down and listen to Him! I know better. Life has seemed to overtake that special time I used to spend with God alone. I look forward to going back to that, and having a more intimate relationship with my God, and it humbles me that He wants me to be more intimate with Him!
I’ll keep you posted…and please pray for God to heal my body…now that He’s again got my attention! 🙂