255. When I Struggled to Forgive Myself

Have you ever replayed a mistake in your mind so many times that you felt the weight of it all over again each time? Maybe it was a conversation, a decision, a season of life, or a regret you wish you could erase.

In this deeply personal episode, Julie shares the story of a difficult season when God began excavating old mistakes, failures, and shame from her heart. Although she knew God had forgiven her, she struggled to forgive herself. What followed was a painful journey through regret, self-condemnation, anxiety, depression, and the exhausting cycle of replaying the past.

Julie opens up about how shame silently attached itself to her identity, affecting her confidence, her relationship with God, and her ability to move forward. Through trusted help, Scripture, worship, and God’s grace, she slowly learned that punishing herself would never bring healing. Forgiveness is not only something God offers, but it’s something we must learn to receive.

If you’ve been holding on to regret, struggling to forgive yourself, or wondering if your mistakes have disqualified you from God’s purposes, this episode offers you some hope. Your worst moment is not your identity. Your story does not end with your failure. God’s grace is bigger than your past, and His healing is still available today.

You’ll also hear how God used one of the hardest seasons of Julie’s life to bring freedom, growth, and a deeper understanding of His grace.